We had a wonderful Christmas. Enjoy a few looks into our family’s memories from 2011.
I really, seriously can’t believe that I’ve let all of Christmas go by without making permanent any of the memories or experiences from the holiday. Thankfully, I took a lot of video and edited it all together to make one huge attempt at preserving what was the first Christmas that Carter really loved and was REALLY into.
I can say that this year was a little tough for me, having to hold back with buying gifts and doing fun things as a family that cost money. Yes, it can be gotten around and fun times were still had by all, but it wasn’t my favorite. I’ve really gone on quite a personal journey over this past month and I’m sure that I’ve arrived at a better place in the end.
This video is a little long. In it you’ll hear more of Carter singing. I’ll apologize now, because you also have to hear me sing. I’m not sure why I thought my voice wouldn’t really be picked up with the camera right by my head. Silly me. You’ll also see how spoiled Carter was by his grandparents. He had a grand ol’ time.
After days of sulking, I finally put my big girl panties on and got out of this house.
I spent an entire day spilling my deepest woes and most ridiculous thoughts. I wallowed in self-pity and I was, at times, completely irrational. My two friends, who actually seemed very proud of me for being an open person when I’m usually not, had to pull me back to good sense at times and were full of advice on how to handle and tackle things that seemed so tough to wrap my head around. It was just so refreshing to take off my filter for once.
And, I’m spending this Christmas season in a blur of baking and cooking and silly tv specials, warm drinks and great friends. I’m enjoying myself. At least for today, I’m feeling ok about the whole no gifts thing. As I’ve started to talk about it, I’m finding that it’s more the norm this year. Not everyone is scaling back just because of money, but because the money thing has started to put STUFF into a whole new, wasteful and worthless category. I think this new, better focus on the holidays is going to make it a much more memorable, less stressful time of year for a lot of people.
I think I’ll bake.