Crying has to be the hardest sound for a mother to hear. It rips my heart out.
Around 3 weeks, Evan’s tummy troubles began. I have always been under the impression that formula is formula. I definitely do not feel that way any more. I started with regular ol’ En.famil in the yellow cans. It didn’t suit Evan’s tummy, so I switched to the gentle version. It didn’t really help and poop problems set in.
From the outside looking in, I find it completely weird to talk about poop. When it’s my child and his well-being, it is a chief concern and I’ll discuss it with anyone who will listen. It’s also hilarious that baby poop descriptions are liked to food. Right now we’re at the peanut butter stage. We want to be at the mustard-colored applesauce stage. Until we reach it, Evan is very uncomfortable. To get there, the doctor has put him on formula that we are calling “The Golden Formula”. We were buying 3 lbs. of formula for $20. Now, he’s on very special “medicinal” formula for $25 for 1 lb. To put it into perspective, that only lasts 3 days. That’s $250/month for this liquid gold. So far, the liquid gold isn’t doing crap for him and I’m worrying about how we are going to continue to purchase this stuff for 5 more months. Despite our dire financial situation, I’ve never considered applying for government assistance. I have reach the point of desperation. I have an appointment in two weeks for help.
He’s got hard poop, gas and spit ups. Uncomfortable babies cry, so Evan is crying a lot and sleeping a little. I definitely believe in teaching a baby to fall asleep on their own. From my experience, it takes only a few minutes of fussing for a tired baby to fall asleep. For an uncomfortable and tired baby, it doesn’t work quite the same. So now I’m torn. Do I continue to try and teach Evan to fall asleep or do I use other methods to get him to sleep quicker?
Pacifier in the mouth, baby swing, rocking to sleep, holding and bouncing, walking, crying it out. Some things work some of the time, but it’s like a puzzle trying to figure out what works on what days.
At this point, I’ve tried it all. I’ve read that it’s normal for babies to cry up to 30 minutes before falling asleep, but it’s just too hard to listen to him cry for that long. I want to fix whatever is wrong. I’m taking this one day at a time, waiting for the golden formula to work and his little system to get stronger and more resilient. It’s so hard…