What do you do when you realize you aren’t nearly the person you thought you were?
I’m not meaning for that to be hypothetical, either. I really don’t know what to do.
Over the 24 hours I have done 2 things that are eating me alive. They were incredibly dishonest. And the purpose of both was to cover my own mistakes. The first was not a big deal. The second was a very big deal that I would have gotten into a lot of trouble had I admitted what I had done.
But if I am who I say and I am and who I thought I was on the inside, I would have taken my punishment. Instead, I saw a way out and I took the low road.
Now there’s no punishment from anyone else, but I don’t like myself and I have to live with me.